Past.......Present..... Future???
since this is going to be my new home.....let me post my entries from my previous blog site....this is me introducing myself to my new cyber space and giving it a background of significant events(if i might say so) slash life changing moments that happened to me.......
Monday, July 19, 2004
just arrived at the office and a thought crossed my mind.....why is it that men try soooo hard to gain back the girl that they already lost but this guy was a jerk (and he knows he was a jerk) when the girl was still with him.....ironic ain't it? men always say this (even hear it from movies we watch): "Women....can't live with them......can't live without them." if you ask me...the same saying applies to them. men always complain that they can't figure women out. news flash guys! we women don't figure you out too.
Friday, July 16, 2004
Just wanna share this nice quote....whoever said this possess a good dose of wisdom.
"When someone breaks your heart, it teaches you that loving someone does not always mean that person will love you back. But don't turn your back on love because when you find the right person, the joy that one person brings will make up for all the past hurts put together. TIMES TEN. "
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
saw this on my bestfriend's site....(shy im gonna borrow this ayt? hehehehe)....this song basically summarizes what i feel right now....god knows who im talking about by posting this on my site....
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all me childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Coz you're presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
But now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you screamed i'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
I tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone and though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
Thursday, July 08, 2004
Just when i thought things were turning out well, life gave me lemonades again. Me and Will decided that we are better off as friends. I was really hoping that we can work out a relationship and I was willing to do whatever it takes just to make it work. But at the back of my mind I knew that it wouldn't work. It's the kind of feeling you get when you feel something's going wrong and it turns out later that your intuitions were correct.
I didn't want to let him go but I knew that it was the right thing to do.....in fact it was the only mature way to handle it. I knew he was still confused so I decided that it will be better for both me and him to stay as friends.
Heartbreak number two....what can I say? shit happens...so when it does the only thing to do is to get on with life and move on.......even if you just want to curl up and die.......
Notice meTake my hand
Why are we Strangers when
Our love is strongWhy carry on without me?
Everytime I try to flyI fall without my wings I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I make believe
That you are here
It's the only wayI see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so smallI guess
I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry
At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby
Monday, June 21, 2004
its been a month since my last entry and it's surprising how things turned out. from my last angst-ridden entry it seemed as though me and will won't work out but guess what? we did end up together! whatever it is that i had to experience and feel is definitely worth it. i have no regrets and if i were to look back....i will still do the exact same things that i did. like what i always say to myself....when you have lemons, make lemonade. it's not always that your world is going to be dark and gloomy......
Thursday, May 13, 2004
ahhhh the familiar feel of my blue weblog page. i missed this. a lot has happened....
all my bad feelings about michelle were confirmed when Will told me that that bitch asked her for money. The nerve! At least Will finally saw what type of girl she was. The problem is he has a new girl.....Leah. She seems like a nice girl and I think Will likes her. He is willing to go to La Union alone just to see her. He would not do that not unless he likes her.
Will arrived May 4. He sent me a message and missed call me. I was so surprised to see his number the first time. I was like "OMG! He's really here!" I wanted to see him immediately but i had work but we did meet up later on. I felt comfortable with him right off. It seemed as if we just saw each other yesterday and just continued on with our conversation. he has brown puppy dog eyes with long lashes. and he touched me in such a way that he also touched my heart and soul without me knowing it. the first time we spent time together was wonderful but the second time around, the roller coaster ride began. i'm not able to read him and he admitted that he has his walls up. hearing him say that, kinda struck a cord in me coz i can't believe he still had his guard up when we were together.
he still haven't texted me or called me since the last time we saw each other. He'll be meeting up with michelle to get the promise ring back and then he's off to La Union to meet Leah.
Whatever....F**k it! i think he's just treating me as a spare tire. I already told him what i felt about him and if he decides to trash that or ignore it I deserve better.
See the stone set in your eyes
See the thorn twist in your side
I wait for you
Sleight of hand and twist of fate
On a bed of nails she makes me wait
And I wait without you
With or without you
With or without you
Through the storm we reach the shore
You give it all but I want more
And I'm waiting for you
With or without you
With or without you
I can't live
With or without you
And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away
My hands are tied
My body bruised, she's got me with
Nothing to win and
Nothing left to lose
And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away
With or without you
With or without you
I can't liveWith or without you
With or without you
With or without you
I can't live
With or without you
With or without you
Friday, December 12, 2003
got a tattoo! finally! after so many years of wanting one i finally had the guts and the money to do it. its wicked! im planning to take a pic of my tat and post in on this blog and my profiles as my pic hahahaha. that'll get rid of the old men who's sending me messages.
About Will, he's teaching me to be a playa. and i think poch is taking all the brunt of it. Will is still so much into michelle.....as always. but i think i've already accepted that that would never change. i realized i dont wanna be a spare tire that he can get from the trunk when his front tire blows up.
ah welllll......life sucks. if you get lemons make lemonade.
Tuesday, December 02, 2003
newflash! the mexican guy i was so hung up with, who i call my right one is a total jerk. im glad i knew now that he's a damn asshole. good riddance!
Will on the other hand is still charming as ever. if only he knows how i feel for him. but of course i cant tell him. i cant even tell him the bad vibes i get over michelle! how can i? i dont want him to lose hope that he and michelle would and can work. i like Will but im not the type who'll snatch a man who is obviously inlove with a girl.
I just wish all the good things happen......i dont want Will to lose everything after he invests all of his love and time.
Monday, July 19, 2004
just arrived at the office and a thought crossed my mind.....why is it that men try soooo hard to gain back the girl that they already lost but this guy was a jerk (and he knows he was a jerk) when the girl was still with him.....ironic ain't it? men always say this (even hear it from movies we watch): "Women....can't live with them......can't live without them." if you ask me...the same saying applies to them. men always complain that they can't figure women out. news flash guys! we women don't figure you out too.
Friday, July 16, 2004
Just wanna share this nice quote....whoever said this possess a good dose of wisdom.
"When someone breaks your heart, it teaches you that loving someone does not always mean that person will love you back. But don't turn your back on love because when you find the right person, the joy that one person brings will make up for all the past hurts put together. TIMES TEN. "
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
saw this on my bestfriend's site....(shy im gonna borrow this ayt? hehehehe)....this song basically summarizes what i feel right now....god knows who im talking about by posting this on my site....
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all me childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Coz you're presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
But now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you screamed i'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
I tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone and though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
Thursday, July 08, 2004
Just when i thought things were turning out well, life gave me lemonades again. Me and Will decided that we are better off as friends. I was really hoping that we can work out a relationship and I was willing to do whatever it takes just to make it work. But at the back of my mind I knew that it wouldn't work. It's the kind of feeling you get when you feel something's going wrong and it turns out later that your intuitions were correct.
I didn't want to let him go but I knew that it was the right thing to do.....in fact it was the only mature way to handle it. I knew he was still confused so I decided that it will be better for both me and him to stay as friends.
Heartbreak number two....what can I say? shit happens...so when it does the only thing to do is to get on with life and move on.......even if you just want to curl up and die.......
Notice meTake my hand
Why are we Strangers when
Our love is strongWhy carry on without me?
Everytime I try to flyI fall without my wings I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I make believe
That you are here
It's the only wayI see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so smallI guess
I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry
At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby
Monday, June 21, 2004
its been a month since my last entry and it's surprising how things turned out. from my last angst-ridden entry it seemed as though me and will won't work out but guess what? we did end up together! whatever it is that i had to experience and feel is definitely worth it. i have no regrets and if i were to look back....i will still do the exact same things that i did. like what i always say to myself....when you have lemons, make lemonade. it's not always that your world is going to be dark and gloomy......
Thursday, May 13, 2004
ahhhh the familiar feel of my blue weblog page. i missed this. a lot has happened....
all my bad feelings about michelle were confirmed when Will told me that that bitch asked her for money. The nerve! At least Will finally saw what type of girl she was. The problem is he has a new girl.....Leah. She seems like a nice girl and I think Will likes her. He is willing to go to La Union alone just to see her. He would not do that not unless he likes her.
Will arrived May 4. He sent me a message and missed call me. I was so surprised to see his number the first time. I was like "OMG! He's really here!" I wanted to see him immediately but i had work but we did meet up later on. I felt comfortable with him right off. It seemed as if we just saw each other yesterday and just continued on with our conversation. he has brown puppy dog eyes with long lashes. and he touched me in such a way that he also touched my heart and soul without me knowing it. the first time we spent time together was wonderful but the second time around, the roller coaster ride began. i'm not able to read him and he admitted that he has his walls up. hearing him say that, kinda struck a cord in me coz i can't believe he still had his guard up when we were together.
he still haven't texted me or called me since the last time we saw each other. He'll be meeting up with michelle to get the promise ring back and then he's off to La Union to meet Leah.
Whatever....F**k it! i think he's just treating me as a spare tire. I already told him what i felt about him and if he decides to trash that or ignore it I deserve better.
See the stone set in your eyes
See the thorn twist in your side
I wait for you
Sleight of hand and twist of fate
On a bed of nails she makes me wait
And I wait without you
With or without you
With or without you
Through the storm we reach the shore
You give it all but I want more
And I'm waiting for you
With or without you
With or without you
I can't live
With or without you
And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away
My hands are tied
My body bruised, she's got me with
Nothing to win and
Nothing left to lose
And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away
With or without you
With or without you
I can't liveWith or without you
With or without you
With or without you
I can't live
With or without you
With or without you
Friday, December 12, 2003
got a tattoo! finally! after so many years of wanting one i finally had the guts and the money to do it. its wicked! im planning to take a pic of my tat and post in on this blog and my profiles as my pic hahahaha. that'll get rid of the old men who's sending me messages.
About Will, he's teaching me to be a playa. and i think poch is taking all the brunt of it. Will is still so much into michelle.....as always. but i think i've already accepted that that would never change. i realized i dont wanna be a spare tire that he can get from the trunk when his front tire blows up.
ah welllll......life sucks. if you get lemons make lemonade.
Tuesday, December 02, 2003
newflash! the mexican guy i was so hung up with, who i call my right one is a total jerk. im glad i knew now that he's a damn asshole. good riddance!
Will on the other hand is still charming as ever. if only he knows how i feel for him. but of course i cant tell him. i cant even tell him the bad vibes i get over michelle! how can i? i dont want him to lose hope that he and michelle would and can work. i like Will but im not the type who'll snatch a man who is obviously inlove with a girl.
I just wish all the good things happen......i dont want Will to lose everything after he invests all of his love and time.
posted by FaLLeN AnGeL @ 3:39 a.m.
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